It is 18th again!
Our special day. I haven't forget about it. I will send it to you by e-mail.
It is not much but that is the lest i can do for you.
Love you babie! take care!
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Monday, January 11, 2010
Miss you... Very much
Usually, my dreams will be filled with love. Love between you and me. It was so sweet. I hoped that I will not have to wake up from that dream. But that could not be possible. I open my eyes and cleared my mind but those sweet memories is still embedded into my head. Now, it is all blank. For each night I slept, I couldn't remember what i had dreamed about. Maybe because I couldn't remember. Maybe it is because i don't want to remember. I am not sure myself.
Each morning I wake up having all blank in my head. The habit of checking my phone is still within me. Every time I picked it up, hoping to see your message. I know it is impossible but I still hoped. Each time my phone ring that usual chime of it, I eagerly picked it up and hoped it was you. After that was a disappointment because it wasn't you. I missed the time when we will chat from morning to night, telling each other our feelings, our pain, and our happiness. Sometimes we even chat until late at night, challenging each other who will sleep the latest and every time, I lost. Each time you were angry of me, I would apologize with the phone. Finally, that kind heart of yours will still forgive me.
Sometimes I hear your voice gently whispering to me. I know that it was my mind playing games with me. At least, I enjoy hearing it. I miss your sweet voice which sounds so charming all the time, even when you are not having a good day. I love it when you call me 'arling' with the most beautiful tone ever.
Each time a door opens in front of me, I hope that the person standing behind it would be you. The image of your sweet smiling face stays clear in my mind but your physical self is so far away.
What miss the most is still your face. So cute, so beautiful, so perfect.
Babie. I miss you. Hope you come back soon. Take care please.
Each morning I wake up having all blank in my head. The habit of checking my phone is still within me. Every time I picked it up, hoping to see your message. I know it is impossible but I still hoped. Each time my phone ring that usual chime of it, I eagerly picked it up and hoped it was you. After that was a disappointment because it wasn't you. I missed the time when we will chat from morning to night, telling each other our feelings, our pain, and our happiness. Sometimes we even chat until late at night, challenging each other who will sleep the latest and every time, I lost. Each time you were angry of me, I would apologize with the phone. Finally, that kind heart of yours will still forgive me.
Sometimes I hear your voice gently whispering to me. I know that it was my mind playing games with me. At least, I enjoy hearing it. I miss your sweet voice which sounds so charming all the time, even when you are not having a good day. I love it when you call me 'arling' with the most beautiful tone ever.
Each time a door opens in front of me, I hope that the person standing behind it would be you. The image of your sweet smiling face stays clear in my mind but your physical self is so far away.
What miss the most is still your face. So cute, so beautiful, so perfect.
Babie. I miss you. Hope you come back soon. Take care please.
Sunday, January 3, 2010
My strength, my weakness
You are always my strength. At the time i was about to break down, I could hear your voice whispering into my ear, telling me not to give up. I fought on, the many victories i had achieved because of that. You lit up my darkest day, like the sun shining every darkest corner on the surface on the earth. I kept the smile on my face, leaving all those grief and sorrow behind me. Many better days i had because of that. You were the pillars of my life. Supporting my in every way. All of my achievements today were because of you. You made me a better person. The best person in your life, i hope.
But now, you are far away. Without the pillars, the walls of the house might hold, barely. I felt weak. Everything was useless for me. I know. All i wanted was not that glory. All i needed is just you. This time i have learned a lesson. At least i had the second chance. I will treat you well babie. I am sorry for all the bad things I have done to you. Sorry that I didn't treat you well. Sorry I was angry that day. Sorry for not listening to you. Please forgive me.
The wounds will heal, eventually. But the scar will still be there. I will not forget these days when you were far away. I am not ready for the 4 years babie. I am not strong enough to take it.
But now, you are far away. Without the pillars, the walls of the house might hold, barely. I felt weak. Everything was useless for me. I know. All i wanted was not that glory. All i needed is just you. This time i have learned a lesson. At least i had the second chance. I will treat you well babie. I am sorry for all the bad things I have done to you. Sorry that I didn't treat you well. Sorry I was angry that day. Sorry for not listening to you. Please forgive me.
The wounds will heal, eventually. But the scar will still be there. I will not forget these days when you were far away. I am not ready for the 4 years babie. I am not strong enough to take it.
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