Happy Brithday!!

Looks like today is your birthday babie! Now you are officially 17! Do you look different from last year?

Sorry i can't be with you for countdown.

Tonight, close your eyes and make a wish. Hope it will cone true.

This blog is open

I have decided to open this blog for everyone. I hope my babie doesn't mind.

I want to share my feelings with everybody. I want them to know how much i miss my babie.

Night of nighamares

Yesterday night was the worst night i ever had. So plain, so dull, so empty.

I had a late nap after dinner as i was tired after my grading. I woke up and found 2 messages and a miss call on my phone.

'Hey, Yee Yan ask you to online now.'

'Yee Yan ask you to online ASAP'

Following that was a miss call from my friend how send me the message.

I knew what the miss call was for.

I was too late. My babie was at a transit in taipei. She managed to go online there, hoping to chat with me. But i was not with her. I was still taking a stroll in dreamland. When i woke up, she have already left, but she left me a message.

Hello darling !!

How is your grading ? Okay anot? My sis leh.. At taipei now. Waiting for transit. Very boring and miss you ! Take care. I love you !

-YaN-

I smiled, but that smile didn't last long. A sigh came out from my mouth soon after. I have missed my chance of having a chat with my babie.

That night i couldn't sleep. I have many mixed feeling in me. Happy my babie sent me the e-mail, regretful i couldn't chat with her, worried if she could take the endless flight but glad that she sounds happy. At last, I couldn't tell which is which. All my feelings was stuffed into heart, each of then struggling to take control of my brain.

I lay on my bed. That night was filled with emptiness. No late night chat with me babie. No good night wishes from her too. It was a cold night for me.

Does man need woman?

'Behind every great man is a great woman' I am sure everybody heard of this before. But they fail to mention what would happen if the 'great woman' is taken away from the 'great man'. Maybe they didn't talked about it on purpose because the person who didn't experience it will not understand what it would mean.

At first, i thought the 'great man' will live a usual life. Doing what he is suppose to do. Achieving his goals, doing all the great things we will usually do, have a happy time at home.

I was half right.

Yes. The 'great man' will live on doing his work, achieving his goals. Live his usually life, physically. But then he will not have somebody to share the happiness with. Life will slowly start to be dull. His soul would start to crumble. If it keeps going on, his spirit in life will collapse. Leaving only the working body and functioning brain. He will be a walking zombie, working all his way to success but not having the slightest happiness he could share.

What motive in life he would have left? Nothing. Nothing to work for. Nothing you hope for. Nothing to live for. Life is a routine now. Like a recorder playing the same track over and over again, just waiting for the track to stop one day.

Everybody have the first time.

Everybody have their chance to do anything they want for the first time. Whether the second time us available for us? Well, that depends on how your first try was.
This yeas was a really special year for me.
Many things change.
My life, my vision, my dreams for the future.
All this just because of one person. It is a wonder how a complex soul can be manipulated by just changing its friends.
This change includes me writing a blog. I never thought i would be doing this in my lifetime. My first, temporary, three months blog. Hope all of you enjoy reading my stuff.

Cycling Expedition !

We did it.. We did it.. We did it !!!!

whooray !! After 1 hour of cycling, we successfully reached Sin Chew daily ! 17 km from our school. hahaha... Felt happy and glad.. Although i m very slow at the back..

Feeling of the day: Lonely

今天有许多人没有来学校, Stef , Csk, Zit, Gab 还有一些代表学校出去比赛..
今天我不是很开心..我觉得Stef 不在我很无聊又很孤独..

I miss you Stephy:) Get well soon !

只剩下 Yi Lin, Cheau Li, WY和YK在学校陪我..但是,今天我和WY 讲的话不超过5句. 早上我一到学校, 他告诉我他把我的东西留在家后,他便开始做他的Chemistry. 我看到他在忙便不打扰他.. 就这样,我们一整天就没有聊天..没有交谈.. 其实我在等他先开口..可是到最后他还是没有.. 他宁愿玩 Rubik 他也没有开口.. 到放学时, 他跟我说: YK 讲你黑了.. Waa.. 我不想理他了.. >.< 唉....

A visit to my darling's house.

家人

昨天下午,我睡醒时,发现电话不见了..我被吓了一跳..

我走到我妹妹的房间,发现他们在和WY sms.

我真的很生气..我立刻向我妈妈投诉..但是上诉无效..他还帮着他们.我真的看不下去..我向 WY 道歉..他很大方..他说他不在意..但是,我很在意..我不容许我的妹妹玩弄他..他们真的很丢我的脸..

我为这件事情纳闷了两天..我真的很在意..从昨天的午餐到现在我没有再吃东西.我没有胃口,也不想看到他们.

今天早上我想弹钢琴..我觉得钢琴可以使我平静..但是,我一踏出房门,我妹便大喊:猪终于醒了..看到他,我更生气,我不应该出去..我受够了他们..我妈妈也不当一回事..他们到底有没有把我放在眼里?他们有尊重我吗?他们做错事,受骂的是我..公平吗？我说我不想吃晚餐，我妈妈问我可不可以不要那么小气..Waa..他们做错事，道歉都没有，还说我小气..我的泪也忍不住掉了下来..我的心碎了..

我不知道我为什么会那么生气,那么在意..可能在爱情的路上的我真的很小气..我爱他..我不容许他受伤害..

School is goin to reopen d.. Time flies.. I am still sore throat and flu. >.< My throat is very pain now.. Cannot speak.. T.T
Today went to club to meet wy. Haahaha.. few days din see him. I really miss him very much.. Today we went there study and lunch only.. Juz 2 hours.. But it is enough for me.. I love you darling...

I miss you, darling !!!!

Today wy din come to school. He went out for chess again. I dun mind but I miss him very much. Haha. Alots of thing happened today.
1.Pn.Wong suddenly said who wan to take account in SPM must give her surat pengakuan. >.< She is a weird lady. Last time she said dun need, just tick on the surat pendaftaran SPM. But now she say the different thing and she scold ppl summore. Walau !!!! Beh Tahan her lo. Se said Mr. Yeow did mentioned on the taklimat for choosing SPM subjects. Got meh ?

2.Pn.C*K boomed me again. =.= She looked at me and told the whole class not to tell those absentee wat is coming out in the exam paper. *Boom*

Love you and miss you darling !

First date !

Our first date.. haha. We have lunch at Groupbase den he walked home wiv me. It is a sweet date for me. Haha. Although this is not the first time.

Actually he plan to do homework in my house wan..but i dun let. Because my parents are so weird these days. My dad said he is free and he can send me to luke there at 7pm later. In this year, he didnt do tat before. So i am shocked. And he said he wan to check my sister's phone. I dunno wat happen to him. I think for tat for the whole night. I dunno wan to let him go into my house anot. I am so confuse. I think my parents dun mind. But i scare my parents will suspect me and check me. Maybe i think too much.

Haiz i dunno wat to do. I plan to tell my parents abt this. But i dunno they can accept anot. What if they cant ? Then i dun have freedom anymore. Nvm. Darling.. We still have time rite ? Just be patient. Few more months. I plan to tell them after SPM.

He is back !

Yea ! My darling is back from chess tournament ! Hahaha. I miss him so much.
He went to the tournament for 3 days and he get 8th for individual and 2nd for team. He is really good in chess.

Just now, someone told me tat my darling dunwan to go for competition again becoz of me. Honestly, i m not happy with tat. :( But he explaint to me tat he is not qualified and he dun like to go because he is suffering there. Just be youself ! As long as you are happy den i aso happy.

For me, i dun like a guy giving up anything juz because of me. It is not worth it. And i dun like to owe ppl. I dun like tat feeling.

I love you,darling ! You are the best ! :)

This blog is for me to share my love life.
I would like to share my experience and my feeling here. :D